Last night I dreamed that I was stabbed

I was on my side

Asleep

Almost

When I heard something

A shuffling, a creak, a sigh

And then I felt it

It-it didn’t hurt

It was

Cold

And then,

 

Then I felt the blood gush gushing out

A swirling waterfall of red pooling in my sheets

 

I tried to hold it in

Hold myself in

Keep my in in

But it was

Useless

 

I cried

And pleaded

But He came again

And again

My stomach

My chest –

 

I woke up

T-terrified  

Alone

With a pain in my stomach that felt like hell

I felt so damn vulnerable

And alone

 

I’m so close to being gone

And my body is so ready

Even at night my mind is tick tick ticking

Ready

Waiting

Ready